If you remember my first testimony about how God set me free from drug abuse, I mentioned my mental health problems and fear which I still had issues with after. It all started in kindergarten: I remember being so anxious that I almost felt some kind of physical pressure. When I was young, I thought everyone had these feelings. I realized later I was different and wanted to be like others so much. I couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me. Other people started to talk behind my back and be mean to me. I used to hyperfixate on a person – somebody who was able to give me a sense of security. Usually, I was choosing people as weak as myself.
I discovered drugs and they quickly helped me fix my internal problem – well, I thought so. It was a lie but I suddenly felt confident, had many friends and, the most importantly, I was fitting in!
When I gave my life to Jesus Christ, I realized that I was living in a false reality. I wanted to stop living like that but it was quite impossible. My issues worsened: I felt stressed and anxious all day long. When talking to someone, all I could think of was how they must think less of me and how they for sure hated me. So… I wasn’t socializing with other people anymore and even stopped talking. It was painful to interact with them and I felt like a total failure. I couldn’t cross the street because I was afraid they would follow and murder me. My head was full of horrible scenes, I was thinking about my own death daily. I hated how I lived and wanted to die so much because I wasn’t sure if there was a point in living. Suicide would save me from my own terrorizing mind.
I was suffering constantly and I cried to God for help.
I wanted Him to save me, so I wouldn’t have to continue living in this misery every day. He was my only hope and He still is the only reason I’m here today. I would be a psychiatric pacient by now, if it wasn’t for Him. I was asking Him to heal me daily but I had a feeling that somebody else heard my cries and made fun of me. Sometimes I wasn’t able to pray without being completely alone. But my unpleasant feelings remained.
Later, I met a girl who told me she had a similar problem to mine and after some man’s prayer she was completely free. I was encouraged and I hoped for someone who would either pray for me or for God to heal me. I thought about asking Stano for help – he was a leader of small Bible study group. I said to myself: „If I’m not free after his prayer, living life free just isn’t for me and I’m giving up on God. I’m destroying myself instead of asking God for anything.“
I went to the Bible study group even though I was anxious. I made a decision to go anyway. After praying, I felt like my world stopped. It was just me and Jesus. He took weight from my body. I felt joyful, calm and accepted. Jesus told me He loved me and welcomed me. It was beautiful. My life has changed. I stopped thinking about death. Anxiety disappeared. I started to love people again.
I can see them for who they are and I’m beyond grateful. It truly is a miracle. God is Mighty King able to solve anything. His timing is perfect, He is never late. I’m glad that I can share my testimony with you. Whoever you are, just please, remember your life has a meaning and you are deeply loved. God wants to give you the freedom you were looking for! 
Testimony in Slovak – Svedectvo v slovenčine: https://zivyjezisvpraxi.sk/bohom-oslobodena/