I grew up in a Christian family and both my parents were born-again so they led us to God as kids. Since little I knew various Biblical stories. We met in home groups as a family but at the onset of puberty came the first rebellions and I wanted to look for my own way of leading life.
Home groups bore me and I did not think them important. It was a nuisance. I wanted to enjoy the life to the full. I was living in a dormitory so my parents couldn’t know what I do in my spare time. It started with alcohol. At least twice a week me and the girls went to get really drunk and then to the disco. Of course, that could not be without boys. I wasted my time with them and gave myself to them. I had this need to be admired by them. Later a friend offered the ‚ecstasy‘ drug (MDMA) to me so we took it. Alcohol made me a harsh and insensitive person but that was a far cry from what the ‚ecstasy‘ did to me. My life changed from that day. I was somebody else. I lost myself without even knowing it. I lived in another world.
Extasy made me a fool. I argued with my parents, I could lie to their very faces hideous lies and not feel any remorse. My mum was hurt by the way I behaved, my brother couldn’t speak to me. Then I tried to smoke weed. Sometimes we carried it on for an entire week and it made me totally apathetic towards the world around me. Nothing mattered. Only I was important. I always thought about the ‚ecstasy‘, when am I taking it next and how it felt the last time I had it. All this time I was writing with one friend who kept telling me about God, what a great value my life holds and how He loves me.
At first I didn’t really register the message but later I started to feel the uncertainty, emptiness, hopelessness – something was missing. I searched for God again. But I needed to meet Him personally. Not long after she prayed with me and I was born again. It was the most beautiful day of my life. That amazing feeling that the Almighty Himself, the loving Creator makes me God’s child and gave me His Holy Spirit, that He forgave my sins! He gave me a heart of flesh, I feel! Before that I felt nothing except for emptiness and loneliness. He gives me wisdom, protections, authority in His name Jesus. I love my parents but He is my Heavenly Father. What my parents couldn’t give me, He gives. <3 As far as drugs are concerned, I detest them. It is disgusting mire of this world ad I am eternally grateful my Saviour who shows me the real Truth and I don’t have to live in lie anymore. God made ‚somebody‘ out of me. I ask Him to use me and He does. I had opportunities to openly speak about Jesus to several people and I think it helped them. Holy Spirit works the impossible in my life.
Drugs are one big lie and I myself am the testimony that one try is enough…once you enter that ship, it sails and it is no easy task to get out of it. Only Jesus is able to gloriously lead a person out from the bondage of lies and addiction. My life is not a fairytale, I have my anxieties, I have a fear of people and other psychological problems… God is with me. Without Him I could not function normally and I call always call onto Jesus for help. He is stronger than any depression, fear, worries.
Relationship with God is one great adventure and I think it is very important for you to know (if you don’t know God) that He loves you and has great plans for you. You are inexpressibly precious. And you who have already entered into the relationship with God, I want to encourage you to talk a lot to Him, to confess and cast your burdens and pains on Him. To be to one another a bright light in the hill and to fight the good fight although it is not always easy… as I stand a witness, He is the best psychologist 🙂
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